If you want to be a grocer, or a general, or a politician, or a judge, you will invariably become it; that is your punishment.
If you never know what you want to be, if you live what some might call the dynamic life but what I will call the artistic life, if each day you are unsure of who you are and what you know you will never become anything, and that is your reward.
And it seems that no matter how much I try to better myself, there will always be something left to be insecure about. Even now that I have more opportunities laid in front of me, my life remains stagnant. I need a hint of movement. A greater sense of liberation. Someone. Anyone. Help me burst the bubble.
I just cannot think straight with this kind of mind set. I’ve lost all energy to stay focused. My lack of confidence and perseverance will be the death of me.
A balloon can only fly up so high until it reaches its inevitable fatality. Deflating and finally bursting in the atmosphere. And that, that is how I feel right now.
Personally I am very pessimistic. But when, for instance, one of my staff has a baby you can’t help but bless them for a good future. Because I can’t tell that child, ‘Oh, you shouldn’t have come into this life.’ And yet I know the world is heading in a bad direction. So with those conflicting thoughts in mind,I think about what kind of films I should be making.